11th May, 2020
Take me deeper, deeper than I’ve ever been before, Abba. I just want to love You so much more. Abba, take me deeper into You. Take me deeper into the water. Invite me into deeper realms. Let it truly be a great immersion.
I’m changing. I am becoming a new woman. I feel Your love bursting forth. I feel joy swelling up within me. Thank You for this journey, Abba. Thank You for making me Your minstrel. You are bringing forth a new sound through me. You are literally singing through me. I feel it. I feel Your heartbeat. This depth of expression excites me!
Abba, I submit completely to what You are doing. It’s beautiful to watch Adedoyin emerge. Thank You for making me Your jewel. Thank You for taking away every barrier and limitation.
Thinking out loud…
“Oh Lord, but I’ve served You. I’ve given up so much for You. I did everything You asked me to do. I’ve been good. How can this happen? Why this?”
Have you ever said any of these words to God. I have! I remember the moments when I was believing God to do something and it felt like He was taking his jolly good time. It looked like life was going smoothly for everyone else while mine felt like a battlefield. Why do I have to skabash and pray forcefully just for a breakthrough in my finances despite how I give and serve the Lord?
One of the things that hinders us from going deeper in our walk with God is this transactional mindset that we have. It is the reason why a number of us struggle with the concept of unconditional love to the people around us.
The thinking makes sense. If you’ve dedicated your life to serving God, if you give recklessly, if you pray ceaselessly, it really should be a no brainer that you’d get all the things you want and desire in the exact moment you want them. There really shouldn’t be any reason for you to lack clothes when you obeyed God’s instruction to give out your entire wardrobe.
While this thinking definitely does make sense, it is a bit myopic and screams ‘self!’. Permit me to invite you to come up a bit higher. All that you do for God is not because of you but Him. Think about it - He has already paid the ultimate price for you; one that if He asked you to repay, you won’t be able to do that in a million years. Yet, all He asks of you is that you live a life of total surrender to Him.
Going deeper in God means that you remove the lens of self and the world and you put on the lens of God. When you do this, you will realize that it’s really not about you. Even the blessings that come your way are not about you. There is a bigger plan that God has in mind and you have a very important role to play in that agenda.
I encourage you to see everything you do for God as a response of love. You give because you love Him. You stay through the fire because you know if He has permitted you to go through it, there must be good at the end of it. You stay because your desire is for His will to be done. You set aside your personal goals and ambitions and take up His because you understand that your life isn’t yours. It belongs to God.
Yes, I know that this is easier said than done but it really does start with your heart. Many of you want to be more intimate with God but you are not ready to give Him your life. Intimacy comes at a cost. There’s a sacrifice to make and this is to give your life fully and completely to Him. It means you are no longer in control. All you have is the assurance of Abba’s love and you take every step of obedience knowing that He will perfect everything as He chooses and wills.
It is true that God does reward us but if all you do for Him is simply because of the rewards you are expecting, there still needs to be a heart shift. There’s more God has in store for you but you will not experience it until you fully surrender.
Of course, it’s great to have these amazing prayer points - relocate to Canada, get a new job, make more money, get married to the spouse of your dreams and so on. My question to you, however, is this - Is this what God wants for you in this moment or is this something you have created for yourself because it’s just what you believe will make you happy?
Like I said, all these things are not bad but I pray that your desire will to go to God first and ask Him what He wants. Ask Him what He wants you to do in this very moment. The truth is that He knows all you need even before you ask but He is looking for people who can give it all for Him. People who can say confidently, “Abba, not my will but Yours.” He is looking for men and women who are willing to go deeper in Him! I pray that you will be one of them.
Amen! Thank you so much for sharing ma❤️